*[[---MaWkisH---]]*

gian is my bestfriend and my boyfriend. why? bago naging kami, 5 years ko na syang bestfriend talaga. since i was 10 years old pa lang yata. so ayun..kaming dalawa lagi nag-she-share ng secrets, feelings, kahit ano.. pero bago naging kami, nagkaroon muna sya ng 2 gf's. si liz, then si tracy.

by the way, tracy, isa sa kabarkada namen, ay ex ni gian.
matagal naging sila. march 2003 yata hanggang april 2004. yata.
kung makikita ninyo yung list ng group namin, (yung entry ko bago ito) makikita nyo na nasa iisang group lang kami. yung guy, yung ex, at yung present gf. wala namang awkward feelings, kasi december lang naman naging kami ni gian, eh april pa sila nag-break. so i was thinking na wala nang feelings si tracy kay gi. i was wrong pala.

yesterday, me, tracy, are arch, ate jelai and dyan went to sm. wala lang.. nagiikot lang kami kahit wala naman kaming dapat gawin. so.. ayun..nung napagod kami we went to jollibee and ate.. tapos nag-cr si ate jelai, ate arch and dyan. so naiwan kami ni tracy. bigla na lang akong tiningnan ng serious ni tracy. etoh yung conversation:

TRACY:(looking at me seriously)
ME:"why?"
TRACY:"paiwan tayo dito, may sasabihin ako sayo."
ME:"ano? may problem ka ba?"
TRACY:"basta..."
ME:"kinakabahan naman ako sayo!"

hindi na sumagot si tracy. tapos dumating na sina ate jelai.eh 3 pm na nun, may gagwin pa sina ate arch at ate jelai, kaya sabi nila uwi na daw kami, pero sabi bigla ni tracy:

TRACY:"sige Arch, uwi na kayo ni Jelai at Dyan. iwan kami ni annie. (that's me ok, they call me annie)"
ATE ARCH:"bakit?"
TRACY:"bonding muna kami."
ME:"wait..." (tapos tumayo ako)
TRACY:"dito ka na.." (pinaupo ulit ako)

so ayun, i was nervous na, kasi dun ko lang na-gets na parang kay gi yung paguusapan. so, i was right. si gi nga ang pag-uusapan. eto yung
conversation:

TRACY:"masaya ba kayo ni gian?"
ME:"huh?"
TRACY:"ano?"
ME:"yes, why?"
TRACY:"wala lang..."

*10 years of silence*

ME:"bakit mo naman natanong?"
TRACY:"wala lang.."

*20 years of silence*

TRACY:"lam mo kasi..."
ME:"oo. gets ko na.."

i was right. love pa din nya si gian. i can't blame her, eh mahigit 1 year naging sila. and i must admit it, nung sila pa, alam kong love na love sya ni gian, kasi kialala ko si gian, at yun na nga... sa mga mata nya noon, kitang kitang sobrang in-love sya.

TRACY:"sige, yun lang..alis na ko.."
*tapos she was crying na. :( *
ME:"wait, sandali lang."
TRACY:"sige wag na, thank you sa time."

*sabay walk-out.*

so, naiwan ako... nagiisip.. nung una naiisip ko, "hey, wala ka nang magagawa, past is past, akin na sya noh! hmmmpppppp..." pero nung napag-isip isip ko.. masakit din yun para sa kanya ha? araw araw mong nakakasama ang ex mo at isang very close friend na magkasama, at sila pa. that's me and gi.

arrrrgggghhh...
i dont know what to do..

mamaya aalis na ang buong barkada coz may overnight kami sa isang private pool.. na ang owner ay yung uncle ni kuya rancy. masaya kasi minsan lang kami nagkasama-sama lahat pero bigla tuloy hindi ko alam kung sasama si tracy..

:(

*[hannah was crying this out at]* | 2:29 AM

Hmmm... pakilala ko na nga pala ang barkada ko, para everytime na may kwento ako eto lang sila oh:

Angel Joanna.16.Nickname is Jel. We call her JELAI.
Francis James.17.Nick is Franz.We call him RANCY.
Cassandra.14.Nick is Sandy.We call her DYAN.
Mark Gian.16.Nick is G.We call him GIGS.
Rafael.14.Nick is Raffy.We call him YAEL.
Hannah(that's me).15.Nick is Han.They call me ANNIE.
Ken Joseph.17.Nick is Kenjo.We call him JOPH.
Dana Patricia.16.Nick is Tricia.We call her TRACY.
Rachel Suzy.16.Nick is Chel.We call her ARCH.
Jude Cyrus.15.Nick is Cy.We call him RACK.
Patrick.16.Nick is Rick. We call him ICKO.

AYAN...Describe ko isa-isa.

ATE JELAI- ate jelai is the oldest girl in the group. Ate na ate ang dating nya, so kapag may problem kami sya ang mabilis makaintindi, taga-bigay sya ng advice. Para syang nanay..hihi.. At masaya ang lovelife nyan! Maganda kasi.

KUYA RANCY- the oldest in the group. Napaguusapan nga namin na hindi sya ugaling oldest, kasi ang kulit kulit parang bata. haha...sorry kuya ranz... pero wag ka.. rich toh...mabilis kumuha ng money sa wallet para manlibre.. at hari ng sablay kasi laging makalilimutin..haha..may amnesia!

DYAN- pinakatahimik. himala kapag makikipagdaldalan sayo yan.. pero trust her, kasi magaling magtago ng sikreto yan. alam nga yata nya lahat ng sikreto ng group. di ba nga, silent waters run deep.. matalino din toh sa math...

GIAN- of course! my gian! haha.. habulin daw ng girls? ha,ha,ha! sori aken yan! at hindi ko yan hinabol ha...ahaha.. daming stalker nyan.. daming anonymous texters.. pero eto din ang pinaka sweet sa lahat, thoughtful pa. napakahilig sa puppies, sobra. kamukha na nga yata nya mga alaga nya? j0ke lang..hihi.. look alike daw ng mga artista? haha! sabi nila eh!

YAEL- eto ang sporty type. tall sya, kaya pede sa basketball. magaling din sa badminton at tennis. laging nasa basketball court. future basketball player yata itoh?

HANNAH- of course! ako! ang internet addict! ahahahaha! pinagkakaabalahan buong araw ang computer. sabi DAW nila, ako daw yung type na madaldal na tahimik. ano yun? ibig daw sabihin moody.. may times na madaldal pero tahimik din. ano yun? haha.

KUYA JOPH- iskolar ng bayan? daming medal, trophies, ribbons, certificates, at kung anu- ano pa ang nakadispay dyan sa room nya, puro awards. future einstein nga daw. pero iba din toh sa girls ha. look alike daw ni hero.

TRACY- the mushy girl. the romantic girl. the lovely girl. pagdating sa lovelife etoh ang expert. ang inbox nya sa cellphone puro mushy love quotes. nagiging heart na nga ang shape ng mukha nya? j0ke lang!

ATE ARCH- pinaka-close ko sa lahat ng girls sa group. ang original founder ng group namin.. magaling sumayaw at kumanta. ballerina yata toh, at nakapagaral din sa center for pop. veeeery talented. at hate na hate nya ang gossiping. subukan mo lang mag-share ng nasty rumors sa kanya at patay ka. well, except na lang sa mga close friends nya na pinapayagan nya na magshare sa kanya ng gossips, pero dead end na yun pagdating sa kanya.

RACK- the debater. grabe kung mangatwiran! di ka makakasagot! daming ideas! at sya nga rin pala ang artist namin, magaling sa art. lagi nga syang sumasali sa mga contest basta may kinalaman sa art. hayop ang talent nito.. at nga pala.. ayaw pa ya magkaroon ng lovelife.. kakaiba noh..

KUYA ICKO- ang pinakamaingay sa lahat. walang oras na hindi ito dumadaldal. kabaligtaran ni dyan! ito din ang fashionista sa amin, or, well... pasyon-nista haha. j0ks.magaling din kumanta.

*[hannah was crying this out at]* | 8:58 AM

You Belong in 1976

1976

If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!

What Year Do You Belong In?

*[hannah was crying this out at]* | 5:36 AM

hey peepz... i'm super busy.. simula nung march 1 super practice na kami for our concert choir's concert in the abelardo hall at U.P...hay..super kakapagod! everyday we have rehearsals and practices, i don't even have time for my boyfriend! arrrggghhhh... tapos ang sakit palagi ng legs ko. by the way... me and mah lovable mama went shopping kanina.. errr..i mean.. naghanap kami ng mabibili nyang cocktail dress. haha..eh di lalong sumakit ang legs ko..i mean..namin! ^__^
at last... nagkaroon ako ng chance makausap si gian kanina.. pero sa phone lang! arrggghhhh... miss ko na xa.. :(
1week ko na syang di nakikita, promise! kahit halos magkadikit lang ang house namin. wahhhhh...
super hectic ang sched ko..
tapos finals week pa.. hay..
nakakpagod..

till next time guyzzzz..

*[hannah was crying this out at]* | 1:15 PM

wala lang... first post muna..
trial post hihi

*[hannah was crying this out at]* | 11:38 AM